Today I post earlier. But it's still late. Writting during the day is... what's the word again - nervermind... doen't not work for me. I'm a night bird, and I was even before my first night job. Feel alone and in peace. Anyway, was talking about day, right....

Well today, so many things came into my mind. I was working on three things at the time and felt a little lost. Most of it, was on Silent Hill. Yeah, one of the thing I love most on earth. I could talk about it hours and days. This is pretencious, but I'm sure no one knows the subject better then me, even his own conceptors. Well, that's surely not thru, but now you can imagine my concern on it.
The work was to ressemble proofs that SH 3 was way better then SH 2. I don't know, everybody loves, adores, Silent Hill 2 : Inners of Fear, and they but every sort of comments on the net, claming it is the best Silent Hill ever. I'm not agree with them. Sure, the game is fine, he made me discover something that change my way to see things three times. But even if the first one was more like a sick Resident Evil - way better then R E, I assure you - and the third one just looks to follow the first blindly, so many things were hide because fans thought so. This is unfaire. Yeah, I didn't catch the all thins the first time either. Was young, naive and just discover the serie.
I'm not joking, the host of Silenthill-france, the only thing that approche a official french web site for Silent Hill franchise, was amazed by my theory of clautrophobia/agoraphobia Vs sociophobia of SH 4, which was the worst Silent Hill at the time. I felt for real what he was like to stay home, like a was locked in there, hope people contact. But the fact was scared. And it was the same for the character of the game. He left Silent Hill for a new life, like I didn't with my home town, but almost lock himself cause the experience wasn't like he thought it would be.
Sure, you will say: "Eh! what are talking about? Nightmares came and suddenly, chains appeared on he's door". Of course. But But for people who saw interviews with the SH-Team, the creators, and espacially Akira Yamaoka, one who took a huge concern on the franchise with the time, you would know that most of Silent Hill games use psychological theories to make their games. And to pass a message, or a atmosphere, you must first creat mistery. Phantasmagoria. And this what SH is all about.
So, to get back on the official subject, I felt responsible to the defence of my favorite Silent Hill game. And just because I still don't like meeting people, but need the exchange with them, I wanted the amuse myself, talking with someone who shares the same passion.
There's a guy, name on Youtube Baruttv, who made a perfect "walkthrough" of all four original Silent Hill by Silent-Team. They take over 20 videos and the presentation of each is brillant. So, for the... third time, I watch SH 1 and SH 3 seires. Yeah, sure, the first game was part of the debate. Was for my own fun. I started building some kind of list of notes from details of the game (SH 3). Six pages, I got. 25 videos, mostly 11 minutes each ones, gives over 4 hours of pure hell. Yes, cause SH 3 talks about Hell, revenge, hate and suffering. It talks about the way someone fills his earth of anger, changing the way he sees the world, how it can change the world. Also how it is futile. Claudia wanted to make the world the way Alessa wanted it in the first game. Full of monster slaying everyone. Rise of hell on earth. She used the child of Alessa, Cheryl, now call Heather for hiding her from the people of Silent Hill, to birth a "God". She killed the father of the young girl to fill her of anger, which was mean to give God strengh.
I recently read Sept Jours du Talion (Seven days of Talion) from a french canadian author. It is the story of a good surgery doctor, who lost his young dauther, killed and raped by a maniac. The doctor finally decide he has to pay. He kidnap him from the police hands and tell his gonna torture him a week long, and after kill him. You are all english people and i'm not sure they be any translation. But if it does, sure but I'll spoiled the end. So he did torture him, pettry hard, keep him alive willinly to make him understand what he've done. Everyone around the doctor, familly, wife, was shock by the situation. The guy was a quiet, peaceful man, totaly disagree with all kind of violence. And suddenly he breaks up. In the middle of the book, people who known it started to manifeste in public their agreement or disagreement. And at the end, they all fight each other, even those was for peace and the release of the prisoner. So the doctor saw how his action change the world, but not the way he wanted.
This was SH 3 was talking about. Even Heather, the main character, said: "Suffering is part of life". So because Claudia was hurt all her childhood, wouldn't mean she had the right to destroy the actual world to make a "better one". Espacialy the new world would be built by hatred.
I read a lot about Silent Hill, in everyone comments, in a lot of forums and topics. No one talked about what I mentioned. Maybe I was lucky enough to find something intersting, but I'm most of people passed it by. Tomorow, I'll start watching SH 2 serie from Baruttv, but I'm sure I already have great arguments.

Also, I try to build a video montage with SH 3 with, in background, the song "Bullet Proof... I wish I was" from Radiohead. During my viewing of the serie, I was playing guitar, specially that song. I think it his appropiate. The melody is sad, they a lot of weird sound effects in the background, and the lyrics fit well.

"Limb by limb and tooth by tooth
Tearing up inside of me...

Heat the pins and stab them in
You have turned me into this...

I could burst a million bubbles
All surrogate and bullet proof..."

I'm not quite sure for the last verses, but still good. The problem is I download all videos from youtube with FireFox... in MP4. And Movie Maker doesn't work with the format. I tried to get some MP4/AVI converter, but of them didn't word unless you pay. What a trick. You download the things free, but pay to use it. I felt like back with the shareware stuff, when all computor games was build with that system. You buy the game, thinking you gonna skip homeworks for awhile but no... you must pay by credit card each part of the game. So back then, and right now, I was screwed. I got made and adandoned the idea for now. Maybe tomorow, the day will shine for me.

I was doing other stuff, but it is boring and I just wnated to talk about Silent Hill. If you read all this, well you must be boudhist. I like write stuffs, make me feel better. I submited some song of mine, but it is like the web site didn't publish then already. When it will be done, I'll write again, even if it is for myself. Till then, goodnight and take care, whoever you are.